Hey guys. Been incognito due to pure laziness and getting used to the schedule around here. Plus dealing with physio and complications.
Gonna have to apologize because I have been quarantined to the first floor and therefore have no social contact with any of the LLers. A precaution the staff and doc took most likely, lol. I did meet one guy that came into my room the first day to weigh himself on the scale that was on my floor and we talked for a bit. He's from the same city I am too! Crazy small world right? He was on crutches and told me he was getting out of here in 3 days. So he's gone now. I guess he was having a hard time gaining weight.
The foyer when you first come in the house was pretty nice, however my room is pretty ghetto, at least by American standards. (I do have a little tv though with all those great American channels they had at that nice hotel I was in
) My bathrooms worse, but the toilet is clean enough that I don't complain. Apparently I have the only hot water in the guesthouse and my physio told me that I am not allowed to let anyone come in to use it. I don't see what the fuss is cause the hot water literally lasts 3 mins. Its heated by a tiny water heater and it sucks bawlz. I'm gonna just sponge bath it next time.
The food is alright, some meals better than others. It's mainly indian dishes. The one I don't like very much at all is the penne pasta one because it tastes sweet and blegh.
My new physio is a girl and she's cool and all but I can kinda tell she's not really a real physio.Complications:
So for about a little more than a week now I have been unable to move either of my big toes back. I can move them forward a little but backwards I've lost all power. Sarin said this was okay and eventually I would get my function back. Along with this is a really weird sensation going on with my feet, ankles and toes that literally feels like bugs are crawling around on it and biting. The pricks are all day continuous
and some are more painful than others. I looked it up online and found something that said it could be do to nerve damage. This would make sense due to my toes not working and since its happening on both my feet. Sarin said that if I don't have my function back around the time before I leave they would do a small, quick surgery in my foot
I really hope I don't have to do this. The physio kinda pisses me off sometimes cause she'll exercise my toes back and forth and will scratch and poke at my big toe trying to make it move or push down on it as if it will magically start moving again.
Another thing that has just started happening these past couple days that hasn't happened before is when I lift my legs up the air I can feel and see
the cut bone popping up on both legs at the break site. Its like the bone below the knee is trying to support the rest of my leg and foot and its gotten harder now to lift both legs. This is really concerning to me and the first thing I could think of was non union. But idk I think it might be too early to tell. What I do know is that the two pieces of cut bone are not stable enough and not locked together like they should be, as if the nail put inside me was too small for my tibia. Anyway its really gotten uncomfortable even to sit with my legs over the edge of the bed.
On a happier note I did get ahold of some chocolate, Dairy Milk Silk like Sweden was mentioning and it was DA booomb. Today I also had someone go get me strawberry oreos. I've been getting embarrassed to keep asking to get sweets but honestly when you're laying in bed all day bored AF with no one to talk to, 3 square meals just don't cut it. I'm a snacker I need my comfort food. lol.
For the most part my spirits have been pretty low these days past. My swelling is pretty much gone but now all these new concerns are springing up. Sarin won't be coming today and who knows when I'll see him again. And because of the biting sensation in my feet and discomfort in my legs I'm afraid to go to sleep because I literally don't get any rest. I wake up at least twice every night. Instead of getting stronger I feel like my legs are getting weaker
These are dark times. Any positive energies you could donate would be really amazing...