Just wanted to bump this, since today looks like a bit of a bad day for me. I somehow have the feeling I won't reach my goal, I don't know... there are many factors I have to deal with, like family, money, complications... I really want to face all them when the time comes and surpass them, finally reaching my desired success and enjoying my new life, but it's a bit far away and many things can change and happen until then. I guess we all here have these kind of days, any words from someone who feels optimistic today? Would actually appreciate it.
I also thought about the suggestions people left in the past comments. I still have some height neurosis and feel bad about my height, but I'm learning how to deal with that during the meantime. After some time of thinking, I'm pretty sure I want to go through this, and also I have identified that my self-perception problem actually resides in my height. Thank you guys for all your past answers and support, they were pretty helpful for my "reality check".